WEEK SIX

[Shane Meaney]

Holy crap. Week Five was the most stressful thing I've ever had to deal with in my life. Like I was having anxiety attacks just thinking about that week. Oh my gosh. I'll just wont forget Andrew campaigning to me, as the eviction was already posted. Like he was crying his soul out to me, and people were already saying bye to him. It was the saddest thing I've ever seen and ugh. Week Five. The week of hell. I can't deal with that shit. 

Anyway, not let's go over who's trust I probably lost this week. 

Rhian and I had a beautiful relationship going. Then she decided to lie to me about her vote, telling me she's keeping Andrew. I start freaking out because Dixie had told me Rhian was voting to EVICT Andrew. It was all so confusing and I wanted to get to the bottom of it. So I told Dixie that Rhian told me that she was keeping Andrew. Then Dixie tells Rhian that I told her that. Then Rhian flips shit on me and we get in this huge trust issue debate. Like, even the argument was beautiful. Rhian is so beautiful and I hope we make final two together, even though I doubt I'll even make it past this week. And she probably doesn't even wanna go to f2 with me. Anyway, I'm getting way too ahead of myself haha.

So Rhian and I eventually make up because we're beautiful people and beautiful souls do that. They make up whenever they have an argument. We decided to define our relationship. We want to be able to trust each other without questioning what the other is saying. I like that. I want to have someone I can trust 100% without having to be like "hmmm" ya know?

Anyway, GM is a huge question mark right now. She hates me for sure. I think. I have no idea. She wanted me to evict Talla, which didn't happen because YOLO. I hated voting Andrew out, but I'm looking out for myself right now. 

I just still can't get over the fact that this week was stressful beyond belief. Like how was it humanly possible for something to become this stressful in just a matter of minutes? Like one minute Kristen was all like "Lol idk who goes between Andrew/Talla" then the next she's like "I want Andrew gone"

Ugh what the heck. Dixie definitely has strong pull on her because it was Dixie that wanted Andrew gone the most, I think. I feel like I still don't have any real friends, except Rhian. Like I'm a floater right now. It sucks to say that, but I'm nothing more than a floater right now. I was compared to fucking Spencer earlier. "You're the Spencer of the house"

AWESOME. 

NOT REALLY.

[Shane Meaney]

The results of the HoH came in today and I was shocked to see that I got a 29/40 on it. Lmao. That's like me going to bed at 4 am the night before an important test that you did not study for and then taking it the next day and getting an unexpectedly good grade on it. And by good, I mean passing. Like I literally ran out of time because I had to go somewhere, so I just quickly put the remaining people to a random voice even if the voice was a different gender. So I mean, I probably could have gotten a higher score if I had time to do it. 

WOW JAMES JUST YELLED AT ME BECAUSE I WASNT BEING SERIOUS IN THE CONVERSATION. LIKE SORRY. I HAVE TO TRY TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF BECAUSE SERIOUSNESS IS BORINGNESS. SORRY IM FUNNY. STUPID.

Anyway, hi. So yeah, Rhian has informed me that Talla is her target this week. Which, I mean, doesn't bother me at all because Talla really isn't helping me in this game. She isn't like hurting my game either, but I'm saying whether she's gone or she stays in the game, there is literally no impact on my own personal game. On the other hand, if James leaves, then there will be problems. I consider him a close ally even though he's a pot stirrer. I feel like he genuinely likes me (sometimes) and I feel like we just have good chemistry and we won't go after each other for a while. So yay, friendship! 

Ugh I'm just glad to have made it to FINAL THIRTEEN. I think I've been doing a good job socially. I know y'all probably don't think it's much, but I feel like the past five weeks have felt like an entire season so it's been hard to keep up socially. 

but yaaaaaaaaaaay F13 <333333

[Shane Meaney]

Okay, can I just say something about Rhian? I think she's a fucking liar and I have no idea if whatever comes out of her mouth is complete shit or something worth believing. Like, she told me straight up that her target this week was Talla. Then she's all like "I didn't really hone in on a specific target, and it wasn't until a day or so after that I really felt myself leaning one direction over another"

So now she's making it seem like she's been wanting to get James out but she's only saying that because Talla is off the block. BUT. Here's another twist. I was talking to Sam last night and he was telling me how Rhian wanted him to use the veto to save Talla, so she can nominate David and for sure take out James.

Ugh. Like I don't even know what to belive. Screw you Rhian.

[Shane Meaney]

GM and I gon have sex 2nite