The Demon-Haunted World

[Roddy Mancuso]

Science as a candle in the dark.

Something I remember quite vividly when watching Roddy play season 3 was Roddy and Chiara's gift exchange before Chiara's eviction. They both hated each other's gifts lol. But what was interesting was that Roddy gave Chiara his favorite book (shown above). Roddy says,

I gave Chiara a book.
A book by my favorite guy, my hero, Carl Sagan.
The best book I ever read and changed the entire way I view the world.
My favorite book of all time.

I'm honing in my inner-Roddy in dedicating this confessional to his hero, Carl Sagan. Each week will be a new quote from the book to inspire how I pursue this adventure. Hopefully I could do Roddy justice and in turn rise and fall all stars justice in playing the best Rod-man game I can play.

[Roddy Mancuso]

“Science is not only compatible with spirituality; it is a profound source of spirituality.”

Week 1

I'm honestly exhausted. I put a lot of effort into recycled, and I feel drained! I can't help it. I don't want it to affect this game, but I don't honestly want to deal with bitter bitches. But tis a new dawn, a new day, a new life I suppose.

If anyone's keeping me in check, it's Andrew. He's been great. I trust him whole-heartedly.

We initially decided that Kevin and Dixie were the two we needed to get evicted this week. But tell me why Kevin and Dixie were two of the people I spoke to, let alone carried a conversation with? Looks like I'll need to have another talking with my main man And.

I have huge reservations for Estelle. A) Because she was a duo with Andrew, and Andrew's mine. B) She was in my season, and she got evicted next to me. C) Animal and I had a weird and funky relationship since playing together. We haven't spoken really, but I think Andrew can help secure my safety with Estelle. I don't trust Estelle at all though.

Dominic was so quick to get started with me in this game. He tried laying out basically a contract of, "I won't do this. Will do this. Won't do this. Won't do this." It was like, check here, here, initial here, and sign here lol. I'm like I can't promise you this Dom. But not because I'm not loyal. But because if I perceive you as inactive, I'll begin to take advantage of the information you tell me. That's just how it is. You smell weakness and attack, and I'm pretty good at smelling who has a weak social game.

And right now that stench is on me. Haven't spoken to many people. I like James. It was funny because I was typing all my answers in BBR yesterday, and then James of course is the person who reached out to me and let me vent (outside of Andrew of course, who's just the best ally ever <3).

I also love Shane! I trust him. And Frank, umm. We'll see. He's very charismatic and funny (which I forgot), but I come into this game open to other options. It is still relatively worrisome considering our past that he was open to new allies when I put all my eggs into his basket.

But there's definitely bigger fish to fry.

[Roddy Mancuso]

Week 1

When looking at results, I had zero expectations. I primarily spoke to David during the night of the competition. He was actually really cool and took initiative in getting to know me. I wasn't really in the inquisitive mind frame last night, but I definitely appreciated David for putting forth effort in getting to know me.

But then there was Andrew, who told me keeping up with all the conversations was TOUGH. I told him that he already has me, so just worry on the other bitches he has to impress. So I just sat very classy, sipping my hot tea, waiting for results to be revealed.

Results were posted, and as I scrolled down, I had zero expectations. I was so surprised to find that 6 people total would be nominated this week! That's scary. But I'm not good at popularity contests in general, so I wasn't too concerned.

Drew, Kevin, and Joe had the most points. Great, then these are the people I want to approach and work with.

Then there was a 5-way tie. In my mind, I thought I would get around 4 points, and that was the score the 5-way tie had. But somehow, I managed to escape nomination this week.

If memory serves me right, Ryan, Ed, Estelle, Dominic, and David were in the tie. Drew got to choose who to keep safe, and he chose David and Ed. I was happy that Drew saved David, but I was surprised he didn't save Dominic. I thought season 2 was tighter than that, but I guess not.

I gave 2 points to Sam and 1 point to Ed. I didn't think this was the opportunity I wanted to out big threats (even if you say the votes won't be revealed, paranoia will always make you think your vote will be found out lol). After seeing results, I'm actually satisfied with how I gave points because NO ONE from season 4 is in the group of 6, fighting for their life in the RAFAS house.

I'm definitely keeping my eye close on season 4. A quick assessment:

Gina Marie: She brings out my OTT. I don't think she understands my jokes at times, and I'm pretty sure I weird her out. But for some reason, I like her lol. But I have to be conscious to see when she turns on me, because it will definitely happen.

Pamela: I mean if I give you a nickname, I either like you a lot, hate you, or don't know how to prounouce your name :X I like Pam, and we have very similar types of humor. But like GM, I'm confident Pam has a strong social game and will drop me whenever it'll benefit her.

Helen: Spoke to Helen for the first time yesterday before HoH. which sounds shady, but she's absolutely so sweet. I like being around positive people, and I enjoy my chats with Helen atm.

Sam: No interaction.

Ed: As soon as I submitted my vote yesterday, Ed came crawling to me trying to work on his social game. I mean, he was very on top of giving me quick responses, but I felt awkward because I already voted him. So idk, he's off the block now, but we'll see how I feel about him later. Still on the fence.

Overall, I survived(?) my first week in the all star house. It'll be nice just to work on social game this week without having to worry about winning a competition or being nominated post-veto.

[Roddy Mancuso]

Week 2

Live DR during HoH 2 Results

[Kat]

One of the funniest videos I've seen in forever lol love it
The end hahaha

[Roddy Mancuso]

“For me, it is far better to grasp the Universe as it really is than to persist in delusion, however satisfying and reassuring.”

Week 2

So talk about going from an awesome high (the video DR) to a tragic low. Just when I start getting into the game, Dixie hits me with the fact that she will be nominating me as a pawn next to Kevin.

At first, I was ok with it. But soon after of course, the emotions got the best of me. And it wasn't anger, it was more so sadness. I'm so used to seeing it coming from people, whether via communication, revenge, or people that I don't like, but I forget I could be nominated for other reasons as well.

So Dixie recalled a video in Starz where I said I would go after his Chris Evans star persona. So he felt that he was on my radar. Which makes sense, but I honestly completely forgot about that vid and that statement lol. And I think we all know Estelle's more on my mind than Dixie was. But given his standpoint, I understand where he's coming from. It's just frustrating from my end because I didn't link his Chris Evans/Dixie characters together. I wish he talked to me about it, but he also probably was comfortable with not working with me.

I don't understand. I personally would like to work with Shadow in a game. But I think he's too paranoid to think I would look after him. He told me I'm the perfect pawn because of the relationships I have with Shane/Frank/Dominic/Andrew. It's weird. I feel analyzed.

But it is what it is and I don't know how to respond to anything. I think I'll just be quiet this round, and we'll see what happens.

[Shir]

Thank you muchly for the video!


Hang in thereeeeee!!!! <3

[Colby]

What Shir said! You can werk it! <3

[Roddy Mancuso]

Week 2

I actually ordered the Demon-Haunted World from my library. It's been on hold for 6 days. I need to get that :X

I contemplated updating this thing, but in case this is my last week, I do want to say I'm in a good place. I haven't been campaigning, I haven't been initiating conversations (except with David, because he's been super good at AIMing me). I've been telling people I'm okay with being evicted. That I want to play with people who want me to play, but if not then I totally respect that decision as well.

Idk, that recycled experience scarred me for realll. It's not fun to trying to win just to please people who will never be pleased simply because you don't have the friendships your f2 counterpart has. It was like an appreciation for strategy went out the window, which is what I love about Big Brother.

So now I'm just here to make friends and vote people out. I tend to get more dangerous down the line, so I'm not saying I won't at some point, do something "Most Strategic" worthy. But I'm not going out of my way to make it happen.

I'm literally ok with whatever happens this week. And if I stay, I'll play the game! If not, I apologize for all of the fantasy teams atrociously affected :X

Just want to throw it out there, I hope I'm the only house guest Kat wishes luck to in the veto thread. I mean I know she wished Kevin luck too, but let's be real. She only meant it to me <333

We'll see if this book has another chapter to give.

[Shir]

I know recycled was a bitch, but you are amazing regardless and I wish it didn't upset you so much.

[Roddy Mancuso]

I appreciate it Shir. I think I just lost the fire to win since BBR. I know I have the ability to do well, but the fun factor isn't really there for me. NOT your fault at all though. I think this is one of the best series I've played in and I love you guys as hosts.

It's just rough going directly into an all-stars game (a date you can't really control when the game starts) after an experience I didn't enjoy lol.

But I'll do my best! Me at 50% is equal to some of my competitors at 100%. So whenever I get out of this funk, pending I survive eviction, it'll be a different Roddy down the line.

[Shir]

I know, I get it. I've been part of a series where it left me feeling shitty after. Hopefully as the time passes, recycled will be irrelevant to you!

[Roddy Mancuso]

“One of the saddest lessons of history is this: If we’ve been bamboozled long enough, we tend to reject any evidence of the bamboozle. We’re no longer interested in finding out the truth. The bamboozle has captured us. It’s simply too painful to acknowledge, even to ourselves, that we’ve been taken. Once you give a charlatan power over you, you almost never get it back.”

Week 3

So I'm trying this strategy of being classy.

After it was revealed I was safe, I receive a message from Talla. It read:

"Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah... I love you. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah... I love you.
Well, as you know I've been playing this game very transparent and honestly like a social orphan just acting out in order to get attention, and in order to attract a family. And because of the lack of support in this game, I don't really cave into the -- Vote to Evict Kevin/Drew -- movement and therefore I've been in the minority both votes. I just wanted to let you know that my vote to evict you was nothing personal, or about wanting you evicted... But more about keeping Kevin, someone who I've spoken to on a regular basis since the beginning of the game."

^That was literally a copy/paste. She said she had to retype everything, so she gave me a summary of what she said when proboards deleted her original post.

Anyways, when I read that, I responded with:

"Thanks for the transparency! Your honestys awesome. No hard feelings <3"

I thought I wrote more, but I didn't. Oh well!

We get HoH results, and we were divided into two houses. From the look of my house, I am ordained to be evicted. Let's just be honest. I know for a fact every person that voted me out last round is in my house lolz.

So what's my strategy? Disappear. I believe there's more of a benefit to me having a horrid social game, than to try and work it with people I'd rather not...

So who knows. Maybe I'll strike a deal with the other side of the house to give them immunity as I throw each HoH comp from here on out. I like being nominated. It's so different. It's a style I haven't played before.

Oh, idk if you know, but Talla won HoH and nominated me and Joe. I had fun with the veto, so hopefully I did well enough to win. We'll see.

[Roddy Mancuso]

Week 3

After writing the post above, I realized the twist is actually in my favor. Regardless if I do something or not, if my house does not win immunity, I'm going up. I'll be nominated. So I think I'll earn my nominations from here on out (strategy as a nominee, I love it).

Soooo.... I came up with an idea. First I spoke to Andrew about it and he thought it was a really good idea. Then I spoke to Frank and he absolutely loved it.

I thought that I could essentially throw every HoH from here on out to ensure House 1 receives immunity, and in turn, I could receive people from House 1's votes to stay. SO I could repeat the process and we can filter out these House 2 basic bitches.

I like the idea. I proposed to GM, Andrew, Frank, James, Estelle and David, and they all seem on board.

We'll see if this actually gets pulled off. But if I could wear a House 1 shirt in House 2 and watch each person beside me leave week after week, I'd love it.