Diary Room #11

[Rhian Sugden]

This basically sums up my feelings right now.

[Kat]

janie is a hasbeen

[Jade Pietrantonio]

That gif is pretty awesome!

[Rhian Sugden]

This week's Head of Household is absolutely crucial to my survival in this game. If I don't win this or Dixie doesn't win this, then my chances of making it farther in this game is bare minimum to none. You can't battle all the way to the end alone, and I'll need my closest allies in the game to make it there. The way I see it, it's the entire house against myself, Dixie, and Estelle. I mean .. that's how it is. People can say they wouldn't come after any combination of us, but it's a fib, and that's just the facts. Dominic seems to sway between both sides. I could see him getting persuaded to put us up, but I think that he'd ultimately go for Sam and Kristen because he doesn't talk to them at all.

When I saw that Head of Household was going to be the video competition from last season, I knew what not to do. Last season, I went in only by watching the video and not taking notes. This season, I more or less spent about three to four hours trying to record information and putting scenes in order. As soon as I finished studying for it, I immediately went to do it. Everything was fresh in my mind and I didn't want to wait too long because then I would've forgot a bunch of it. After doing the challenge, I felt confident, but not confident enough. I was just about 18 minutes and I knew that was a beatable time. All I did was panic the entire time, waiting for results. It felt like one of the longest waits ever.

While waiting for the results, I started talking to Ryan. I guess Ryan kinda' knew that I'd excel at this sort of challenge, so he basically told me that if he won Head of Household, he'd nominate Dixie and Estelle but wouldn't nominate me. I made a deal with him. The deal was, the both of us couldn't nominate eachother in any capacity until the F6, that means no initial nominations, no backdooring. No anything. In addition to that, to make it sweeter, if either of us were on the block against anyone, we aren't allowed to evict the other until the F6. It's a crazy deal .. but I feel like Ryan would honor a deal at this stage. Deals have been made with him and broken by others, so what if I honor ours?

[Rhian Sugden]

I won Head of Household! Oh my god. *Twirls around the key. This is perfect. As soon as I won, Dixie, Estelle, and I were all texting back and forth, super excited about the victory. This means that none of us are leaving this week. Perfect. These other bitches better start shaking in their boots, and rightfully so. Let's take a look, shall we? You have Frank, who threw his closest friend here under the bus just to save his own skin, you have Sam and Kristen who fibbed about their votes and then tried to play them off with technicalities, you have Ryan, who had the nerve to try and bring me into an argument on the board he was having with Dixtelle, and then you have Talla .. disgusting.

No matter how you look at it this week, I'm getting someone out of this game that has led me on, lied to me, or just has never been someone I could count on and could never count on should the roles be reversed. This week will be a successful one in that sense, but now it comes down to .. who makes more sense to go? Everyone left is a threat in their own right, I mean, that's why they're still here. Well .. with the exception of Sam and Kristen, I suppose? They've leeched off the stronger players to get to this point. They're what Daniele Donato would call piggybackers. They've ridden the backs of rest of us however have taken it upon themselves the past two rounds to bite the hands that have fed them. I don't appreciate that. I really don't. It's time to pay up.

I'm nominating Kristen and Sam this week. Should the nominations change, fine. I have a back up plan in mind. However, these two need to recognize, I'm not going to let them escape the block this time. They managed to fool Estelle, Dixie, and I last week in that they'd be loyal to the renewed group of five and Ryan would go, yet what do you know! They didn't. Ryan stayed. I don't have time for that. It's on principle. It's for me to save face. They're going up for wronging my alliance and I. Neither have ever shown or proven to me that they're with me either. Evicting GinaMarie, blindsiding us with Ryan's vote, Sam not choosing Talla over me, etc. The list goes on. I don't trust them.

[Rhian Sugden]

I'm not surprised that I'm alone in this Power of Veto competition. That's great. Thanks, universe! All my closest allies are sitting out and it's me against these morons. I have to win this. I have to ensure that the decisions this week are in my hands, and what I want to see happen, happens. When I saw that Sam picked Frank, I approached Frank. Frank and I had a small discussion, where Frank basically admitted that if he won Head of Household, that he would've nominated myself and Dixie for eviction or in his words "I would have considered it." Lmao. I decided to show him logs that Kristen and Sam showed me when they were campaigning, about Frank trying to get an alliance together to counter Dixie, Estelle, and I. He didn't deny any of it. Caught.

I mean, I always knew Frank was a gameplayer. He's here to win. He's here to do whatever it takes. That much was shown when he threw his his closest pre-existing relationship in this house, under the bus. Anything to save himself and increase his chances in going far. I can't trust that. However, I'll pretend to! Frank and I made a "deal" that is similar to Ryan's except it's just for nominations. If I don't put Frank up at all, then Frank wouldn't put me up at all if he won Head of Household in the next two rounds. Interesting. What's funny about this, is that he made similar deals with Estelle and Dixie .. so who the hell is he going to nominate? Ryan? Talla? Lmao, no. Frank will say or do anything to save his ass, and I have that in the back of my mind right now.

When it comes down to Frank and Ryan's deals, I trust Ryan's more. There's another reason to this too. Frank's initial nominees would be myself and Dixie, Ryan's initial nominees would be Estelle and Dixie. That alone right there has me leaning towards keeping Ryan off the block over Frank should nominations change at all. In addition to that, Frank's word means shit. It literally does. I know Frank. I can honestly say I do, and I've seen him play before. I know he'll be as cutthroat as possible to get ahead, and I wouldn't bet on him honoring our deal. However, I think Ryan would. The way Ryan reacts to people backstabbing his deals, makes me think he's the type that would thoroughly honor one if it was honored right back. We'll see if he's hypocritical and breaks this deal. But .. this all depends who wins Veto and if nominations change.

[Rhian Sugden]

YES! Ugh. I really didn't think I was going to win the Power of Veto this week, I really didn't. The odds were stacked against me by who was playing, but I pulled out the victory. It feels amazing stepping up into this role as a challenge whore, as last season, I threw a majority of the competitions in order to play more of a social game. This season, it's more about competitions than the social game. The lines are pretty much drawn in the sand, and my odds wouldn't be the same in surviving without these competition victories. Now that I've cleansweeped the week, everyone is going to be a little cautious. I have the power to shake things up .. and I'm actually debating making a move.

Kristen and Sam were without a doubt vengeful nominations. They deserved to sit on the block after the past two weeks. I didn't hesitate putting them up and I don't regret it. I enjoyed placing them where they are, but if the nominations do stay the same, the possibility of Kristen leaving is greatest. I would prefer Sam over Kristen, so that doesn't really help my situation. I think this week it's time for a power move. It's time to take out someone who is more likely to defeat myself, Estelle, and Dixie in competitions, that isn't on our side. Ryan or Frank. The two people who made deals with me, probably because of this reason. They were covering their asses should the worst happen, and it did.

If someone comes down off the block this week, it's going to be Kristen. I already told Kristen I was pissed at her and I needed to put her and Sam up, but she was never my target, but, if nominations were to stay, she'd be the one going home because of people in the house pissed at her. She swore up and down that she wouldn't nominate me if she won, if I saved her [yeah, okay, like I believe her], and I played along. WIth Kristen off the block, she'll save her precious Sam, and Dixie and Estelle will vote on who I prefer. It's been discussed that if nominations change, who I put up as replacement will be the one to go. I'll break the 3-3 tie and send him packing. It'll be glorious. After all, this game is about getting someone before they get you. Be scared, Frank.